Trapped Inside Of Me

There's a world outside these walls
And I watch it through the glass
Like a man buried alive
Inside his own skin

My mind still runs
Still screams for freedom
Still refuses to die
But my body keeps fading
Year after year

I wanted simple things
To stand up on my own
Open a door
Hold my mother without help

But every little movement
Feels farther away
And that silence inside me
Gets heavier every day

Some nights I feel invisible
A soul trapped behind weak muscles and fragile bones
And nobody sees the war
Happening inside my mind

I am trapped
Trapped inside myself

My soul screams for freedom
But my body pulls me down

I watch life pass me by
Like a dream I cannot touch

Everyone sees the wheelchair
But no one hears
The man breaking apart inside

I watch my father grow older
Using his strength for me
I watch my mother exhausted
Sacrificing herself for me
And still smiling

And I would give anything
To carry their pain instead
Because a son should protect
Not depend forever

How many nights did I pray for a miracle?
How many times did I ask God why?

I still have faith
But hope can feel too heavy

Waking up every day
Inside this prison
Slowly wears me down

I am not this disease
I am not this weakness

I am a man
Screaming from inside a falling body

My body may fail
May break
May imprison me

But the pain still proves
There is life inside me

If my body is my prison
Then my thoughts
Are the last freedom I have left