So I'm Told

In spite of all the things I've said
I find myself so weak
The light is quickly fading
as my soul becomes antique
and in this hour of darkness
All the ones i've loved are gone
They ran away from something
But I just can't see what's wrong

The lives that slip on by me take a turn for the worst
My friends call me an asshole, while my family calls me cursed
And in my paranoia, I just push away the blame
And if I try to fake it, It'll just end all the same

Blinded by the absence of my fatal wish for glory
Sitting here upon my throne, no chance to say I'm sorry
Apologize for all the lies and anger that i've made
But watch me cross my fingers to all the dreams that i've betrayed

Tired at the world, I shake my fist to set me free
But in my house of mirrors, my reflections all I see
I never see the promise, just the faults that cause me rage
So batter me inside my head, inside my rusty cage

Fuck the world and all it's promise
God, I wish I wasn't on it
Not my fault that all this misery
Is all I have to show
If I think of what is missing
I'll Give my cries another listen
'Cause it's getting old
Or So I'm told

Fuck the world and all it's promise
God, I wish I wasn't on it
Not my fault that all this misery
Is all I have to show
If I think of what is missing
I'll Give my cries another listen
'Cause it's getting old
Or so I'm told