Monologue

What have I done?
I stand here holding a gun.
I am confused, bemused and
wanting to understand who I am.

I just, just gotta know
what's going on inside my mind.
I just, just gotta know
what is behind, behind these eyes?

Who is this at my feet?
Where am I? No retreat.
Find myself incomplete,
drenched in cold, cold sweat.
She is gone, all is lost,
one mistake, what great cost.
Who did this? They will pay,
I will avenge you!

I just, just gotta know
what's going on inside my mind.
I just, just gotta know
what is behind, behind these eyes?

Who, who would take from me
my deepest breath,
take the life out of her flesh?
He will taste this pain,
these bitter tears.
Behind these shattered eyes,
I only fear he runs from himself.
Faces of time are shattered on the floor,
the smoke is clearing.
As I look in this broken mirror,
the divisions are clear.
Could this be - all of this born of me?
Ripped apart!

Nothing to gain, nothing to lose.
(Nothing is left but empty remains.)
Her crimson dress,
scarlet canvas of your darkest fury...
(What could have been will never be.)
You can't pretend
that you're innocent any longer.
(What could have been will never be.)
You know the truth
on the edges of your mind.
(It was always me! What have I done?)
The actions that unite us cannot be undone.