(And The Chorus Sand) A Dead Refrain

Skyscrapers - are crumbling - mountains move in my path
The streets lights - are twisting - pulling me to the earth
My veins are anchored in this city - I am defeated by this lack of conviction

I am crushed - by 800 miles - eyes widened in self loathing
When the fucking dirt proves stronger
Than the most pure emotion that I've ever fucking had
So what is left in life - but my destruction?
Why do my lungs still gasp - when I no longer breathe for you?
Where is the truth in my existence - when I have been cut off from
Your tender fingertips - all that I've known falls down around me
Every twisting tree and dead end street reminding me of you
Taking me back
A year
My life crawls on without you - amongst the endless snowing sheets
Disheartening moments of salvation come to me only when I am asleep
I no longer stomach the denial - hiding the weakness of my being.
The day to day has been a slow blur since you left
Only (your) forgiveness sets me free
Free
The bridges - collapsing - hillsides are growing fast
The pavement - is shifting - quicksand controls my will
I question life and its true meaning
I am defeated by this feebleness of will
Frenzied thoughts arrest my mind
As I descend towards my eminent destruction
The only thing I can rely on - when I lie even to myself
Skyscrapers - are crumbling - mountains are closing in my path
The streets lights - are twisting - pulling me to the earth
My veins are anchored in this city
I am defeated by this lack of conviction
Am I already dead? I proceed hollow - unloved
I am our burnt out memory - self muutilation is my mainstay
Tear me away - from the pictures of your face
Pry my eyes from your written word
Tear me away - from the bondage of regret
Convince me that I am alive
This is the end - the end of everything
All I held dear - has slipped from my grasp
This is the end - the end of everything
All whom I've loved - are fucking memories
This is the end - the end of everything
As I am ripe - for this demise
This is the end - this is the end of everything
I kneel - godless and beaten
I long for moments when my eyes aren't blinded by emptiness