Where are you now? (feat girlhouse)

You proudly carried your
Conditions like a cross
I calculated my position and
Went along
One night turned to one week
Turned to one year
Wrong side of the right life
But I'm right here

We were 19, you were nervous
Tracing butterflies on the
Curtains
Coming up with what you
Gonna say
'Cause he always calls late, and
You knew you couldn't hurt
Him

So then, tell me how was I
Supposed to feel?
How was I supposed to heal?
To hell with your closure
But I still want mine

Where are you now?
Are you shaking, love? Are you
Faking a smile? Yeah
Where are you now?
I'm breaking down, but I'm
Gaining ground, yeah

I was treating my heart like
You treat a burned end
Taking every bit of bad advice I
Ever heard, mm
One night turned to one bride
What an affair
You lied and tried to hide your
Colors from your cousin while
She dyed your hair

Well, you got me now
Where are you now?
Are you shaking, love? Are you
Faking a smile? Yeah
Where are you now?
I'm breaking down, but I'm
Gaining ground, yeah

We were 23, I was nervous
Tracing butterflies on the
Curtains
Thinking that there's gonna
Come a day when I finally take
His name
And I know I don't deserve it

We were 19, was it worth it?
We were 19, was it worth it?

Where are you now?
Are you shaking, love? Are you
Faking a smile? Yeah
Where are you now?
I'm breaking down, but I'm
Gaining ground, yeah

I'm breaking down