Ideal waste of time

I must've been blind
I missed all the signs
The hints and the clues you gave me then
You think it's a game
Where no one's to blame
And you can decide to save me now

When everything's touch and go
And you push that buttons that make me slow til I stop
The pain I can understand
But I can't know everything if everything is suffering

And I don't know what you had in mind
Is this your ideal waste of time?
I don't know what you're here to find
It's not much but it's still mine

It must be the end
You told all your friends
Your very own version of things then

Don't like to complain
You're not even sane
And that's being kind and flattering

Now that everything's on the run
And you walk all over me just for fun til you stop
The pain I can understand
But I can't know everything if everything is suffering

And I don't know what you had in mind
Is this your ideal waste of time?
I don't know what you're here to find
It's not much but it's still mine

Maybe I'll try to have my doubts
Maybe I'll live with my withouts
Whatever I lose I'll lose again
What's a little fire in all this flame?

And I don't know what you had in mind
(Is this your ideal waste of time?)
I don't know what you're here to find
Maybe it's not much

I don't know what you had in mind
Is this your ideal waste of time?
I don't know what you're here to find
It's not much but it's still mine

Don't know what you had in mind
Is this your ideal waste of time?
I don't know what you're here to find
I figured it out it's a waste of time
And it's not mine