Shade Of Grey

Open eyes
roll out of bed again
and go through the motions
awake and unconscious.
look in the mirror
there I am again
feeling so empty
the greyest shade of sick.
sometimes my eyes deceive
I try not to blink
I think I see the beauty again
has it returned?
then it¡¯s gone; the moment¡¯s lost
sinking all over again
this false sense of hope is far too much.
I can only run so far before I tire and fall
falling again and again I stay down.
I wish I was someone
I wish I was something
I wish they could see me again
I was trying too hard

Fall apart, like so many broken hearts
Infect my mind, like so many left behind
Cross my heart, as I hope to die
Twisting the knife so slowly
As I crawl away again

I want to be no one
I want to be nothing
I want to be invisible
Until my tears have dried

Fall apart, like so many broken hearts
Infect my mind, like so many left behind
Cross my heart, as I hope to die
Twisting the knife so slowly
As I crawl away again

Crawl away¡­into one more day
Just another shade of grey