Regression

I started waking up before the weight could settle in
I stopped checking every mistake before I made a move
I went through days without counting every reason to turn back
For once, the things that used to stop me couldn't reach me

I watched the distance grow between me and who I was
I thought I had finally left it all behind

Regression
I'm right back where I started
Regression
After everything I changed
I had a way out in my hands
Then watched it disappear again

Now every morning feels like something I've already survived
The same hesitation finds me before I even leave
I catch myself making all the choices I swore I wouldn't make
And every step forward feels like something I have to relearn

I know these signs, I know exactly where they lead
That's what makes this fucking worse

I know this pattern
I've worn it before

I know where this takes me
And I fucking hate it
I built myself out of this once
I watched myself become someone new
Now I'm standing at the beginning
With everything I fought for behind me

Regression
I'm right back where I started
Regression
After everything I changed
I had a way out in my hands
Then watched it disappear again
Regression
I'm right back where I started
Regression
After everything I changed
I had a way out in my hands
Then watched it disappear again

Back where I started
Again