I HOPE SHE HATES YOU

I heard you're seeing someone
That's nice

Really

I'm happy for you

I hope she hates your favorite movie
I hope she never gets the joke
I hope she thinks your stories are boring
And doesn't laugh at all your quotes

I hope she orders something different
When you take her to that place
I hope she doesn't know exactly
How you like your coffee made

I hope she thinks you're complicated
I hope she doesn't understand
The little things you never mention
That somehow I still can

I don't want you back
That's not what this is

I just hope she never learns
The things I already did

I hope she hates you
Just a little bit
I hope she gets tired
Of the way you are

I hope she leaves
Before she falls too far
I don't want you back
I just don't want her
To have you

I hope she hates you
I hope she sees it too

I hope she thinks you're terrible at dancing
I hope she steals the blankets first
I hope she never says you look good
When you're wearing that old shirt

I hope she doesn't know you're nervous
When you talk about your plans
I hope she misses all the little things
I used to understand

And maybe that's the ugly truth
I'm trying not to hide
I don't miss being yours anymore
I just hate the thought
That someone else might get it right

I don't want your attention
I don't want another chance

I just don't like imagining
Her learning your little habits

I hope she hates you
Just a little bit
I hope she gets tired
Of the way you are

I hope she leaves
Before she falls too far
I don't want you back
I just don't want her
To have you

I hope she hates you
I hope she sees it too

Maybe I'm jealous
Maybe I'm petty
Maybe I'm perfectly fine

Until somebody tells me
She's doing better than I did

I hope she never hears that song
You played when you couldn't sleep
I hope she never finds the places
You promised you would take me

I hope she never knows
How soft you get when nobody's watching

And I hope she never notices
That you still say my name
When you're angry

I hope she hates you
Just enough to leave

I hope she sees the things
I was too blind to see
I don't want you back
I finally know that much

But if she loves you
Like I used to

God
I hope she doesn't
I don't want you
I just don't want her
To know what I know