Two Faced Truth

I filed my feelings into rows
So nothing spills and no one knows

I learn your grief like a second tongue
Say: I'm okay when I'm undone
I hold your storms in borrowed hands
Then wash them off like rubber bands
My kindness is a measured dose
A practiced smile, a perfect pose
But every good I force to grow
Leaves bruises where the soft should go

And in the quiet, I taste the thrill
A spotless room, a killing still
The warm side sweats, the cold stays dry
Tell me why the cold feels like I

I'm two-faced truth in one tight dress
A tender touch, a hidden press
I can save you, I can stare
One costs me blood, one feels like air
Turn the lights down, let it bite
Watch my halo lose the fight
If you hear the dark sing stay
Don't look away, don't look away

Step closer, count to four
There's a door behind the door
Step closer, lose the should
Dark tastes sweet when it feels good

I keep a garden in my chest
But some roots curl around the rest
I cry on cue, I nod, I kneel
Then feel impressed I didn't feel
Empathy is heavy couture
Stitched in patience, worn for war
But cold is silk, it slides so true
Like finally doing what I want to

There's light somewhere in this split skin
But I can't promise we'll get in
So if you follow where I dive
Bring your match, or learn to die alive

I'm two-faced truth in one tight dress
A tender touch, a hidden press
I can heal you, I can take
One is a gift, one is a break
Turn the lights down, let it bite
Watch my halo lose the fight
If you hear the dark sing stay
Don't look away, don't look away

I don't need blood to be a threat
I just forget you're real, then yet
I watch myself from overhead
A doll with strings that thinks it's fed

If darkness is a mirror, take a look
You might see your face in my open book
And if the page turns, if the floor gives way
I won't lie: I like the way it sways

Hands up, eyes shut
Let the panic rut
Breathe in, lights out
We dance the doubt out

I'm two-faced truth in one tight dress
A tender touch, a hidden press
Come with me, but understand
No map survives my shifting hands
Turn the lights down, let it bite
Watch my halo lose the fight
Chase the light through broken gray
No guarantee you'll find your way

Step closer, if you dare
The dark is honest
The light is rare