Uncorfortably Numb

It's happening again, just locking it inside
Pushing it down where the demons reside
Swallowing the anger the sadness and guilt
Till I'm drowning in turmoil this hell that I built

Burying my feelings and biting my tongue
No pain no love, no nothing just numb
Drifting along like I was quietly unplugged
No lifeline no tether no heartstrings to tug

The pressure keeps building it begs for release
The silence the noise it fills me can't scream
Can't hear me won't hear me this bodies not mine
The pressure keeps building it's a matter of time

It's happening again
I'm fading away
No one can see me or hear what I say
Buried by feelings that don't have a name
Overwhelmed by the pressure to do it again

Then the emptiness comes a need to succumb
I'm hollow I'm empty uncomfortably numb
I don't want to do it but can't stop the collapse
Drawn to the pain to feel something at last

The pressure keeps building it begs for release
The silence the noise it fills me I scream
Can't hear me won't hear me this bodies not mine
The pressure keeps building I've run out of time

Fading between the silence and the scream

Unplugged, unseen
Uncomfortably numb